Growing up, every now and then we’d have a yard sale.
Yard sales can be a pretty cool and a good way of generating a little extra coin by selling some of your less desired item.
But they can also suck, especially when you find that your life-size stuffed Alf doll is on the market for a cool 50 cents. Seriously, Alf for just 50 cents? That’s criminal at best, I tell you.
I was always fairly good at evaluating, or re-evaluating, the items my mom had tossed in with the yard sale lot. I’ve always been fairly good at realizing how much items are worth to me and the investment it would take for me to give them up.
I’ve never been that great, however, at evaluating what I’m worth and I’ve never even been close to good at realizing the value at which I should be sold.
As a result I’ve often gave myself away at a yard sale price. Whether it be in relationships, friendships, or work, I’ve very often allowed myself to become fully invested without even the hope of ever seeing close to my true market value in return.
I’ve sold myself short and gave myself away demanding very little in return. Of course the solution to this problem seems simple, I should just raise my price, right?
But I find that’s so much easier said that done. I find it hard to step back and honestly see my true value, to see all the qualities which should raise my price, and much easier to see the many scars and flaws that I feel depreciate my value.
It’s far easier for me to see myself more like the old stuffed animal worth 50 cents, rather than like the treasured relict from one of TV’s most underrated shows.
I can only imagine this breaks God’s heart and at the same time feels Satan with joy.
The God who created me with a brain capable of dreaming up impossible dreams, an ability to be creative and think outside of the box, and a heart that longs to use both of those to make the world a better place, is likely pretty pissed off to see giving myself up in exchange for 50 cents.
While Satan no doubt loves it because he knows the pain and scars that result each time that cheapening transaction occurs. He knows the debilitating effects such each sale has on God’s creation and I’m sure is stoked to see those effects hinder the creation’s ability to produce good works and find true joy.
I decided on New Year’s Day that in the coming year I need to spend more time simply being a human being, but along with that, I need to strive to embrace the true value of this human being.
I need constantly keep in mind my true worth and refuse to give myself away for anything less.
I need to embrace that God didn’t create me for a yard sale. — @TravisKWilliams